The quietest people can have the most to say.

July 17, 2017

 

I have always been a bit of an old soul, I enjoy reading and things like puzzles and word searches, and ever since I was young I have felt more comfortable with people older than me rather than people my own age. It is very safe to say I don't enjoy a lot of things that most stereotypical 22-year olds enjoy.

 

I have always felt different from most people my own age. The emotional depth I have, that effects the way I view the world and virtually everything I do is a rarity I haven't found in a lot of people, especially young people.  So sometimes I have a hard time connecting with the for lack of a better term rambunctious (see I even sound 80 when I write) side of people my own age, and I've been that way my entire life. I think that's why I enjoy kids so much, I love the sense of freedom and curiosity that they have, one that to an extent I didn't allow myself to have because I didn't want to cause trouble. 

 

Growing up with a disabled sibling does cause you to mature faster in a lot of respects. You have to learn to do things yourself very quickly because your sibling is always going to require extra time and care. One of the choices made as a very young child, consciously or subconsciously I still haven't figure out, was I wanted to be the least amount of trouble I could possibly be for my parents and after reading "The Normal One" I learned that this is fairly common for the abled sibling.  This is an aspect of my personality I have a very strong love-hate relationship with. 

 

You absorb things very quickly as a child and from a very young age I knew that through no fault of his own Brett was always going to take extra work, whether it be getting ready in the morning, doing school work or going out somewhere thats just the way it was going to be. So I learned very quickly  to do what I needed to do for myself and then some. 

 

Both my parents are very successful and are extremely hard workers and when they would come at the end of the day, like any parent they would be tired, but they always had work to do with my brother and a lot of times they would need help from me. 

 

Now, I like being helpful and I like being needed, but it wasn't until I got to college that I realized the toll that that had taken on me. 

 

I am by no means a perfect person and was by no means a perfect child, but I always was and to a small extent still am terrified of getting in trouble and making someone else angry, because it would make more work for my parents, and I learned from very young age that the best way to prevent these things from happening is to listen, do what you are asked and don't ask a lot of questions 

 

So those of you that know me would probably say I'm quiet, well this is the main reason why. I am not really shy even though it might come across that way, I actually really love talking and other people I am just trying not to cause trouble or make anybody upset. This is something I've been working on I know that you can't please everybody and I have definitely found my voice and enjoying getting to share it with others and boy do I have A LOT to say so stay tuned... (maybe thats why I like writing so much ;)). 

 

 

 

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