Life is a funny thing because it is constantly testing you. It is constantly pushing you to be better, work harder, solve problems and try new things. You can either resist the challenges or you can rise with them and grow, and even though life can throw you hard times that may last a long time, truthfully life is only going to give you what you are ready to handle...even if you feel like you can't.
I've had my fair hard moments in school and with confidence and I've lost loved ones and had other experiences with my family and friends that have been difficult, but the two hardest things I've ever had to do in my life have played into each other.
The first thing was saying goodbye to my brother for an extended period of time. I've done this twice once when I left for college and once when I left for the internship that I am doing currently.
Leaving for college is hard for any kid. You say goodbye to your family, your friends, your house and for many of us it is the first time we are completely in charge of our life. When I left obviously I was going to miss my parents, but saying goodbye to my brother made me not want to go. I had spent my whole life in a dynamic that was now going to be interrupted, for the first time we were going to be doing different things and we weren't going to see each other.
We have phones and I was really only any hour away but for the first time I had to be an individual and figure who I was besides being Brett's sister. And that is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and something I am still in the process of figuring out.
Even when I was in school I spent a lot of time at home, but the time that I spent away was preparing me for where I am right now. I am currently interning at a broadcast company in Florida and when I am finished I will have spent three months here, that is the longest I have ever been away from my brother.
This again forced another goodbye that was harder because I knew I wouldn't be seeing him for three months but the opportunity this has given me to grow not only as a professional but as a person as well has been incredible.
When I went away to school I was ready, even if it didn't feel like it at the time. I'm in Florida because I am ready and I can feel that. Where this is going to lead me who knows but this experience is preparing me for whatever is next.
I know there are going to be many more goodbyes between Brett and I, but they are not really goodbyes... they are opportunities for both of us to grow as individuals and figure out who we are and what we want. Nothing will ever break our bond, and everything I do I do for him and I can't wait to tackle whatever life throws at me next.
The point is even when you have those moments where you feel like you're never going to get through something remember that life is making you better and soon you will get to stand on the other side of the situation a stronger version of who you are meant to be.