Passion is a unique emotion because it is something that is ingrain in your soul, but you have to discover it and then you have to be brave enough to follow it. Passion is the feeling you get inside you when you are doing something you were meant to do. Its magic and its different for everybody.
I believe that a lot of people find their passions but aren't brave enough to follow them. One thing I've learned about passion is that you don't have to actually be good at what your doing, because that's not the point, the point is simply that whatever your passionate about is ingrained within you and it is teaching you that it is more about loving something and not letting anything get in the way of that than it is about being the best.
I don't think its any secret that writing is one of my passions, and I would like to think I am fairly good at it. From the time I was very young I felt this need to express my emotions through writing and when I do I feel a sense of strength and purpose within me, and a feeling in my heart that I know that no matter what I end up doing as a career I will always be writing, even if its just personal.
But I want to talk about another passion of mine, one that provided me so much clarity at a time when I needed it the most, one that truly changed me as a person.
I spent most of my childhood and teens comparing myself to my friends. They all seemed to be good at everything, where I felt I was good at nothing. They all had their things that they loved and where really good at, but I was still searching for mine. It was hard for me, because while I like doing athletic things I am not an athletic person. I'm a slow runner, I am not coordinated or flexible at all, I'm not artsy or crafty, so while I liked to participate and try and even played a few different sports I didn't love them and I was always comparing how bad I was to how good everyone else seemed to be.
That changed when I was 12 and I went open skating with my best friend. Mind you I had never ice skated before and given my coordination skills I was certain I was going to fall and break something, but believe me when I say that the minute I stepped on that ice I changed, my heart changed. It honestly felt like magic, it felt like this was the thing I had been searching for, and from that moment I knew I didn't want to do anything else.
So I took skating lessons from the time I was 12 until I had to leave for college, and I'll be the first to admit I was not a great skater, but thats the thing, it didn't matter. For the first time I stopped comparing myself to everyone else and I was just me, heart wide open enjoying every single minute of my time on the ice. It was the first time in my life I was doing something and I didn't have to think about it, I just felt it and it felt right. It allowed me express myself in a way that I had never known, and for the first time in my life I felt graceful and beautiful and confident.
I also had the most amazing coaches, who praised my handwork and always made me feel good about myself, which is something I really needed because at the time I didn't think very highly of myself. While I was far from the most talented skater, I was willing to work to be the best that I could be and it truly still means so much to me that they gave me their time. I took so much more from them than just learning how to skate, they believed in me even when I didn't believe in myself and that is something I will cherish the rest of my life.
That's how you know when you find your passions, they are things that you feel instantly connected with even if you don't understand why, and they are things that even if you can't make a living from them, you will continue to do as much as possible because they make you feel like you.
I know that no matter, where I am, who I'm with or what I'm doing that I can always pick up a pen and a piece of paper and create magic and I also no that part of my heart will always be on the ice. So if are lucky enough to discover your passions, do yourself the favor of following them.